Salmon Sashimi......................................................

After working incessantly for 2 nights on this research essay...
and I'm pretty much zonked out now...
I just got to say that....

I'm craving so much for sashimi!
Do you know how much I'm craving for it?
Its as much as my cravings for tauhuay, wanton mee, kway chap, sugar cane, sushi tei, chicken rice, nasi lemak, soya bean, roti prata, mee siam and teh gao!!!!!!!
Shing, your blog's fault.

Don't post food pictures on your blogs! It makes me go crazy when I see them! hahaha

Remember your purpose?

Its been awhile since I've ran away hiding.

But I can still feel a lil purpose lingering within me, which would burgeon into a strong motivational force.

There are changes which I wanted to make, but have forgotten along the way.

I told a friend a few years back with zest and drive that the world is gonna be my playground from then onwards, but it seemingly demonized after awhile.

But you know and I know it, that whether life is beautiful or ugly depends on your perspective. You can find all kinda reasons to justify each side but at the end of the day, which would ultimately make you a happier person?

I'm sure you know.

When I recover, I'm gonna fight back.
And its gonna be soon.

Stirring

I finally garnered the courage to post this entry.

Well, its been the 2nd night since Mom and Dad left and although this is the 2187390th time I've experienced good byes, I still find it afflictive.

I still can't help but feel a rush of emotions when they were loading their luggages into the car. Just a lil more than a month ago, I said goodbye to the Odacians and now again, I'd to say good bye to my parents. Like always, I couldn't bear seeing them drive away. I swiftly closed the car doors and muttered 'bye', without even saying 'have a smooth flight' and quickly walked home.

I told myself that I WILL NOT CRY but my tears just kept flowing. This is why:

The 2 days before they left, they drove me to places which are far from town because they knew I wouldn't go to such places if they weren't here.

They insisted that I bring forward my orthodontist appointment so they can drive me there. (Although it was really inefficient and unnecessary because they had to make 2 trips)

They stocked up so much food for me (such that I think I can survive a year of war)

My mom stayed up the whole night to clean up the house, marinate the meat, do the laundry, basically everything she can such that I can be a bum the next few weeks without worrying about food or housework.

Whenever we do grocery shopping my mom fights with me over the carrying of stuff. She says she that if I continue carrying such heavy stuff which I always do, I will become shorter (???) and I'll have a difficult time giving birth (?!?!?) Sounds like a warped logic but you get my point.

They make me feel like a real princess - I DON'T DO ANY HOUSEWORK WHEN THEY ARE HERE! She wakes up early in the morning to prepare breakfast when I said that bread would do.

Whatever they do is always because of me, me, me, ME AND ME and of course my brother. Basically, us, kids.

My mom always says that my Dad spends all his money on us and he only buys 3 for $10 Pasar Malam shirts when he is a General Manager.

I guess my attitude towards them perceptibly changed since Sec School, JC. They ruled my life with an iron fist. I reproach them for pushing me into things I don't like. But as I grew older, they gradually see my point and on my part, saw their painstaking efforts.

I venerate them.

My friends came over the night they left which brought me assuagement. I'm thankful for that although I guess they would never know.


Yeah I am a lucky shitass who always get stuck in her own whirlpool and I deserve to get a lashing out from somebody if I don't get my ass moving.

Huiling tells herself: pull yourself together you lousy momo!!

Oh! And I really like this prologue written by Bill Clinton:

'I have been graced beyond measure by my family life with Hillary and Chelsea. Like all families' lives, ours is not perfect, but it has been wonderful. Its flaws, as all the world knows, are mostly mine, and its continuing promise is grounded in their love. No person I know ever had more or better friends. Indeed, a strong case can be made that I rose to the presidency on the shoulders of my personal friends, the now legendary FOBs.'

[Edited]
Haha, I thought this was quite funny. We always don't listen to each other:
chen - my dad
Huiling - of course thats me

chen says:
r u there

Huiling says:
yeah

chen says:
we r back to office

Huiling says:
huh singapore?

Huiling says:
i thought u were in bangkok

chen says:
aiyah,you never listen did you

chen says:
we were in bangkok only for a night cos we need to be back to office to finish up some urgent matters then we are off to Hongkong on teuesday.

chen says:
did you go out with your friends

Huiling says:
nvr..i said so many times tt it was raining what..u also nvr listen

chen says:
u told mommy not me

chen says:
i am daddy

Huiling says:
i know, i told both of you whattt

HAHA

she dreads farewells

Today, I saw their courage.
They are just one of the many people you see on the streets everyday.
But each has their own compelling story to tell.

I wish them well.

I'll brace myself and suck it up.
Its all good. And will get better.

Take care momos.

Let it be

I had a myriad of thoughts to verbalize just minutes ago.
But this song vocalized everything I wanted to convey in brevity.

Let it be
When I find myself in times of trouble, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree,
there will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see,
there will be an answer. let it be.

Let it be, let it be, .....

And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light, that shines on me,
shine until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, .....

irrelevant

I endeavour to make this blog a happy one.
But its not easy to keep a truthful smile on your face with a concatenation of bothersome events.

So, I (sometimes) turn to black humour - I'm sure you do too!



Oh man, these stuff have left me debilitated. But objectively speaking, I'm not in the worst situation.

I briefly skimmed through the article by John Flemming again. It made me feel so... brainless. I'm always concerned with peripheral issues and my skin-deep understanding of Contracts and Torts makes me feel uneasy.

Anyway, I heard my lecturer mentioning something about criminals when convicted, need to pay $50 which would be later used to compensate the victim. First reaction (trying hard not to roll my eyes) was trying to come up with a plausible reason to explain why would such a policy be feasible. Thinks hard.... and chuckles: maybe thats what makes us (NZ) different.

Decided that I shall not be so bias against NZ's policies, I tried to find out more, hoping for a believable explanation that could elucidate such an idea:

'National said yesterday it would levy all offenders $50 at sentencing and would put the money into a scheme to compensate victims.

Party leader John Key said the amount of the levy would not change regardless of whether it was a serious crime or a traffic offence and would be a one-off payment for the conviction at sentencing.

The money would help victims with one-off expenses not covered by ACC or other state help, such as travel to court and additional counselling.'

...
I find this more convincing:
'But Ms King today said large numbers of criminals would not pay.

That coupled with the scheme's administration costs meant there would only be about $2 million to $3 million a year to give out, meaning the scheme was nothing more than a gimmick.'

It probably can't even cover the operating costs.

And we have this thing called ACC - Accident Compensation Corporation:

The Accident Compensation Corporation (ACC) administers New Zealand’s accident compensation scheme, which provides personal injury cover for all New Zealand citizens, residents and temporary visitors to New Zealand. In return people do not have the right to sue for personal injury, other than for exemplary damages.

The negative side of this is that people tend to be less careful.
The positive side of this, and so they say, efficiency and arguably more fair to the victims.

My take on this: not exactly impractical but not all that effective too.



Its been a month since you all (5 of you) left!