Nah, I changed my mind. Must stop whinging and grow up.
The Phantom of the Opera was really impressive.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Monday, November 10, 2008
As lazy as Huiling
HOOYAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am done with Contracts, Macroeconomics and Torts!
HOOOOYYYAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!
I'm relieved that its over not because I do not like them just that it was the most hellish/traumatizing/stressful/draining exams I ever took in my entire life. Not kidding.
When I saw my exam timetable, I knew I was gone:
6/11 Law of Contract (2:15pm - 5:30pm)
7/11 Macroeconomics (9:15am - 12:30pm)
8/11 Law of Torts (2:15pm - 5:30pm)
What perfect dates - to squeeze my 3 core papers in 3 days, 2 out of which are full year papers. So.not.funny. Still trying to be ambitious, I was determined to read all my cases (~500 pages for torts, ~400 pages for contracts). I became a hermit the week preceding the exams, never stepping out of the house. The housework accumulated, the toilet paper and food depleted but Momo was flustered, trying to save her sorry ass by cramming and churning out pages and pages and pages of notes - almost finishing 1 cartridge of ink within a day.
As usual, my time management skills were far from perfect. Rather, I was (also as usual) too stubborn to just read the damn summarized notes. I spent practically ALL my time on contracts, allocating close to nothing for Torts and Econs. I felt that contracts was too important to neglect or do badly, a challenging paper thus a good test of ability, I like it, I like my lecturer, and I attended quite a bit of lectures for it. It was a bad choice I know because the subsequent days after contracts were seriously LIKE HELL and I have never felt so tired/desperate/hopeless/helpless etc before. But then again, I know if given another chance, based on my character, I would have done the same so no regrets.
Basically, after contracts I was beaten and the thought of having to study Econs (freaking 11 topics) after a draining 3hour paper, within 1 night and drag myself early next morning to sit for the other paper was blooodddyyy demoralizing. The desire to do well in that paper adds further to the burden. Anyways, its beyond words to describe my frustrations. The table was acting like a magnet that night, pulling my head down and I finally gave in around 1plus 2am.
The second day of battle didn't come any easier. I was so tired during the exam I hardly put an effort to think. I was contemplating to sleep for half an hour during the paper and wake up later so I can have a lil more concentration but I was darn scared that I would oversleep so I pushed on. Uh, but I reached my maximum endurance level and left half an hour earlier. (I knew the worst is yet to come, I had to complete 1 year of torts within 1 day).
Ok, part 3 of the battle was by far the most horrid and traumatizing one. I have never cursed so much in my life, so afraid to fail yet so desperately wanted to do well. I remembered when I saw the pile of notes I had to read at 1am, tears welled up and I was on the verge of giving up. By then, I was already ridiculously tired after 1 week of slogging. Anyway, I cursed like no other and collapsed in bed at 2am, completing only unintentional torts. I woke up at ~8am the next morning and chionged intentional torts. O.M.G. it was so pressurizing I never knew that I could speed read THAT fast. I completed 6months worth of work in 4hours. Rested a lil and went through the structure and format of the exam and off I went, feeling like I'm 1% prepared.
But it didn't go all that badly, or rather, thats what I think, you never know till the results are out. I might have addressed the wrong issues and totally screw it up but something to be proud of is... I WROTE 30PAGES!!!
And after this whole traumatizing experience, I went to the High Court and voted for the very first time! I was a lil reluctant initially because I did not know about the electorates well enough to make a sound decision but then again, thats when democracy fails - when people like me any how vote. No lah, not really any how but not technically serious as well.
Next was spring cleaning. My apartment was FILTHY. It was sooo disgusting I had to clean something up even I was already half-dead. So I did till my back was screaming in pain and I ended my day watching some elections-related programme.
Ok the next 2 days, Huiling has been ridiculously lazy and greedy, so much so she refused to get out of her house although she had heaps of errands to run. Maybe because the house feels so clean now she must enjoy every bit of it before it gets dirty again. I woke up, ate rice and mushrooms stuffed with mincemeat for breakfast, an hour later, rice with egg and went back to sleep. Then we headed down to mission bay for ice cream and then I had tom yum for dinner. Next morning I woke up to have tom yum with rice and headed back to bed.
I am recovering.
Then again, I actually have not finished my exams. Haha.
I am done with Contracts, Macroeconomics and Torts!
HOOOOYYYAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!
I'm relieved that its over not because I do not like them just that it was the most hellish/traumatizing/stressful/draining exams I ever took in my entire life. Not kidding.
When I saw my exam timetable, I knew I was gone:
6/11 Law of Contract (2:15pm - 5:30pm)
7/11 Macroeconomics (9:15am - 12:30pm)
8/11 Law of Torts (2:15pm - 5:30pm)
What perfect dates - to squeeze my 3 core papers in 3 days, 2 out of which are full year papers. So.not.funny. Still trying to be ambitious, I was determined to read all my cases (~500 pages for torts, ~400 pages for contracts). I became a hermit the week preceding the exams, never stepping out of the house. The housework accumulated, the toilet paper and food depleted but Momo was flustered, trying to save her sorry ass by cramming and churning out pages and pages and pages of notes - almost finishing 1 cartridge of ink within a day.
As usual, my time management skills were far from perfect. Rather, I was (also as usual) too stubborn to just read the damn summarized notes. I spent practically ALL my time on contracts, allocating close to nothing for Torts and Econs. I felt that contracts was too important to neglect or do badly, a challenging paper thus a good test of ability, I like it, I like my lecturer, and I attended quite a bit of lectures for it. It was a bad choice I know because the subsequent days after contracts were seriously LIKE HELL and I have never felt so tired/desperate/hopeless/helpless etc before. But then again, I know if given another chance, based on my character, I would have done the same so no regrets.
Basically, after contracts I was beaten and the thought of having to study Econs (freaking 11 topics) after a draining 3hour paper, within 1 night and drag myself early next morning to sit for the other paper was blooodddyyy demoralizing. The desire to do well in that paper adds further to the burden. Anyways, its beyond words to describe my frustrations. The table was acting like a magnet that night, pulling my head down and I finally gave in around 1plus 2am.
The second day of battle didn't come any easier. I was so tired during the exam I hardly put an effort to think. I was contemplating to sleep for half an hour during the paper and wake up later so I can have a lil more concentration but I was darn scared that I would oversleep so I pushed on. Uh, but I reached my maximum endurance level and left half an hour earlier. (I knew the worst is yet to come, I had to complete 1 year of torts within 1 day).
Ok, part 3 of the battle was by far the most horrid and traumatizing one. I have never cursed so much in my life, so afraid to fail yet so desperately wanted to do well. I remembered when I saw the pile of notes I had to read at 1am, tears welled up and I was on the verge of giving up. By then, I was already ridiculously tired after 1 week of slogging. Anyway, I cursed like no other and collapsed in bed at 2am, completing only unintentional torts. I woke up at ~8am the next morning and chionged intentional torts. O.M.G. it was so pressurizing I never knew that I could speed read THAT fast. I completed 6months worth of work in 4hours. Rested a lil and went through the structure and format of the exam and off I went, feeling like I'm 1% prepared.
But it didn't go all that badly, or rather, thats what I think, you never know till the results are out. I might have addressed the wrong issues and totally screw it up but something to be proud of is... I WROTE 30PAGES!!!
And after this whole traumatizing experience, I went to the High Court and voted for the very first time! I was a lil reluctant initially because I did not know about the electorates well enough to make a sound decision but then again, thats when democracy fails - when people like me any how vote. No lah, not really any how but not technically serious as well.
Next was spring cleaning. My apartment was FILTHY. It was sooo disgusting I had to clean something up even I was already half-dead. So I did till my back was screaming in pain and I ended my day watching some elections-related programme.
Ok the next 2 days, Huiling has been ridiculously lazy and greedy, so much so she refused to get out of her house although she had heaps of errands to run. Maybe because the house feels so clean now she must enjoy every bit of it before it gets dirty again. I woke up, ate rice and mushrooms stuffed with mincemeat for breakfast, an hour later, rice with egg and went back to sleep. Then we headed down to mission bay for ice cream and then I had tom yum for dinner. Next morning I woke up to have tom yum with rice and headed back to bed.
I am recovering.
Then again, I actually have not finished my exams. Haha.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
This is just a dream
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What have you learned after 1 year of Torts?
Unless you want to fail, never enroll into an 8am stream.
My extremely desperate attempt to salvage my studies - I need a miracle.
[Edited 01:19 am] Reflection of helplessness
[Edited 02:00 am] K.O.ed
[Edited 05:59 pm] You know whats scary about law exams? When you realize that you can have all the resources in the world and 'cheat' by bringing them into the exam hall (open book) yet still running the risk of failing. ahhh.....
[Edited 09:18 pm] sobs.........
[Edited 11:02 pm] screams!!!!!
[Edited 01:06 am] help...help...help...so...tired...
[Edited 01:58 am] This is not a dream, this is a nightmare...
[Edited 03:02am] 1 cup of coffee, 4 cups of tea, 2 doses of supplements yet I'm barely awake... I don't look forward to the next few hours.
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p
r
e
s
s
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d
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What have you learned after 1 year of Torts?
Unless you want to fail, never enroll into an 8am stream.
My extremely desperate attempt to salvage my studies - I need a miracle.
[Edited 01:19 am] Reflection of helplessness
[Edited 02:00 am] K.O.ed
[Edited 05:59 pm] You know whats scary about law exams? When you realize that you can have all the resources in the world and 'cheat' by bringing them into the exam hall (open book) yet still running the risk of failing. ahhh.....
[Edited 09:18 pm] sobs.........
[Edited 11:02 pm] screams!!!!!
[Edited 01:06 am] help...help...help...so...tired...
[Edited 01:58 am] This is not a dream, this is a nightmare...
[Edited 03:02am] 1 cup of coffee, 4 cups of tea, 2 doses of supplements yet I'm barely awake... I don't look forward to the next few hours.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
THE meme
Being in an ultimate irritable mood today or rather everyday till the exams are over... I shall do as told by QQ (Shiqi, my new nick name for you, you know, like QQ rice!) - do the MEME test.
Before that, I wonder why is it called the MEME test - is it because its all about me, therefore sounding something like: ME! ME! Or maybe its just some cutesy name to attract more people into doing it. Or maybe its... hmm... ok... I know, stop asking, and just do it.
THE MEME (*gives the -___-" face) TEST
Before that, I wonder why is it called the MEME test - is it because its all about me, therefore sounding something like: ME! ME! Or maybe its just some cutesy name to attract more people into doing it. Or maybe its... hmm... ok... I know, stop asking, and just do it.
THE MEME (*gives the -___-" face) TEST
1. My ex is still:
Ex as in ex-boyfriend? Why...why is this test so cruel... to bring up my sad sad past which I've tried so hard in burying deep down my heart... oh my broken heart!!!
I don't have la. Hahaha!
2. I am listening to:
The Phantom of Opera by Sarah Brightman & Michael Crawford.
3. Maybe I should:
Stop eating so much.
4. I love:
Food, music, economics, law, outdoors, laughing at people, backpacking, my friends and family, art, pranks.
5. My best friend(s):
Allow me to abuse them.
6. I don’t understand:
A lot of things. You sure you want me to list it down? Really? Are you sure? Serious? Yeah, I knew it, I'll spare you that and summarize it to what Jo claims: the 5Ws and 1H on basically any or everything.
Where, When, What, Who, Why, How???
7. I lost:
My sanity.
8. People say:
Life sucks.
9. The meaning of my screen name is:
Experiencing and loving this sucky life.
10. Love is:
When you see that no matter how sucky this life can be, its still worth living.
11. Somewhere, someone is:
Conspiring to end the human race. And someone else is trying to save us.
12. I will always:
Wonder why, think of what to cook, think about my friends, think about what am I going to do in future, think about how am I going to make it in future, think about how can I get to backpack, think about every lil thing you can ever imagine.
13. Forever seems:
Like now.
14. I never ever want to:
Feel guilty.
15. My cell phone :
Samsung something. Ask the Joannas haha we all have the same phones!
16. When I wake up in the morning:
I switch off my alarm and go back to sleep.
17. I get annoyed when:
I am annoyed. I get exponentially annoyed (if that makes any sense) when I am a lil annoyed which makes me angry and frustrated and the monster in me awakes.
18. Parties are:
Fun fun fun!
19. My pet(s) is(are):
Dalmatian (which my parents gave away), fighting fish (which I abandoned them after they jumped out of my container), a very big spider (which I quickly gave it back when it was dying), hamsters (which died after being transferred to different homes too many times), terapin (which my mom threw away accidentally with the vegetables in the sink)
Yes, I'm not the best pet owner you know. But I still love dogs, so much that I've decided that I will not own them in the near future to spare them from my tempting care.
20. Kisses are the best when:
They are shared with a human I guess.21. Today I:
Was late for all my lectures, which are the last lectures of this semester. HOOYAH!!!
AND I HAD MY LAST 8AM LECTURE THIS MORNING!!!!!!!!!
22. Tomorrow I:
Will dress like a guy. Cheap thrill. No, I don't have a habit of cross-dressing, I just think that baggy shirts and jeans are very comfortable which are suited for tomorrow which can be foreseen as a highly irritable day since I've to study.
23. I really want:
My friends and family to be with me here.
24. I want to ask:
Why am I answering all these questions?!?!!? This is one of the oddest thing I've done this week. Haha.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Dreams...? No, Nightmares!!!
Please have mercy on me!!!
My nightmares are taking a toil on me, makes me feel as if I haven't slept for a few nights.
First I stabbed my brother, next I was in a sadistic game show, then I was in an operating theatre, then I got a C for history, then jerking up through the night thinking that I missed torts again.
I die die also will not enroll into an 8am stream ever.ever.ever.again! So.tired.
BUT once I get this Art History Ass-ay over and done with, I'm going to harness all my freaking energy and brain juice and intelligence and will-power and motivation to study my butt off for the finals! No one can stop this girl's aggressiveness and determination to study her torts, contracts and macroecons! (Maybe art history) Not even the weather! Not even her bed! Not even the TV! Not even the internet! Not even her dreams! Not even...uh...food? (I say this with some doubt) RAHHHHHHH!!!!! DO YOU FEEL MY OVERWHELMING DETERMINATION!!! *ROARS LIKE HOW AN AGGRESSIVE TIGER WOULD!!!
I WILL GLUE MY BUTT TO THE SEAT IN GLORIA JEANS FROM 10AM TO 10PM EVERYDAY! I WILL BREAK MY PERSONAL BEST ACHIEVED LAST YEAR FOR CLOCKING IN 12 HOURS IN GLORIA JEANS! EVEN IF ITS JUST A MINUTE EXTRA! I'LL STUDY LIKE NO OTHER! COME ON EVERYBODY WHO IS HAVING EXAMS! DETERMINATION IS CONTAGIOUS LETS ALL STUDY TILL WE DROP DEAD (AFTER THE EXAMS). HOOYAH JOIN HUILING'S CAMPAIGN TOWARDS A BETTER SOCIETY BY STUDYING YOUR ASS OFF NOW!!!!! EVERYONE SHOUT: HOOYAH!!!! (That's our slogan, shout it out before every exam you take, it will bring you good luck)
My nightmares are taking a toil on me, makes me feel as if I haven't slept for a few nights.
First I stabbed my brother, next I was in a sadistic game show, then I was in an operating theatre, then I got a C for history, then jerking up through the night thinking that I missed torts again.
I die die also will not enroll into an 8am stream ever.ever.ever.again! So.tired.
BUT once I get this Art History Ass-ay over and done with, I'm going to harness all my freaking energy and brain juice and intelligence and will-power and motivation to study my butt off for the finals! No one can stop this girl's aggressiveness and determination to study her torts, contracts and macroecons! (Maybe art history) Not even the weather! Not even her bed! Not even the TV! Not even the internet! Not even her dreams! Not even...uh...food? (I say this with some doubt) RAHHHHHHH!!!!! DO YOU FEEL MY OVERWHELMING DETERMINATION!!! *ROARS LIKE HOW AN AGGRESSIVE TIGER WOULD!!!
I WILL GLUE MY BUTT TO THE SEAT IN GLORIA JEANS FROM 10AM TO 10PM EVERYDAY! I WILL BREAK MY PERSONAL BEST ACHIEVED LAST YEAR FOR CLOCKING IN 12 HOURS IN GLORIA JEANS! EVEN IF ITS JUST A MINUTE EXTRA! I'LL STUDY LIKE NO OTHER! COME ON EVERYBODY WHO IS HAVING EXAMS! DETERMINATION IS CONTAGIOUS LETS ALL STUDY TILL WE DROP DEAD (AFTER THE EXAMS). HOOYAH JOIN HUILING'S CAMPAIGN TOWARDS A BETTER SOCIETY BY STUDYING YOUR ASS OFF NOW!!!!! EVERYONE SHOUT: HOOYAH!!!! (That's our slogan, shout it out before every exam you take, it will bring you good luck)
Monday, October 20, 2008
Huiling, start your essay!
[Edited]
Sometimes I think I'm the most obstinate person on earth. Especially when I want to prove my point. I don't know whether I'm really determined and unyielding or am I just being bull-headed and stiff-necked. After applying for shit loads of internship positions and not getting any definitive ones, I'm still adamant that I.can.get.an.internship.without.contacts.
Maybe its time to abandon my relentless pursuit of proving to I-don't-know-who that I can get an internship with nothing except my own capabilities, and subordinate myself to the common notion that contacts are indeed, important. Sigh, why do I always like to take the road less traveled and end up u-turning back to the road frequented. I end up only to reinforce the point which I set out to derogate.
I realized I actually could have gotten an internship by now if not for my pigheadedness. Family and friends have offered to help but this mulish mule remained mulish so serve her right if she ends up being a waitress in Thai Express. Rah. Lesson learned: draw a line between determination and foolhardiness.
I shall learn that in my forthcoming Art History Essay and stop running away from it just to prove my point that I don't like it because I think it makes no sense. Instead, I should see the bigger picture - that its worth 30% of the final grade, due in less than 48 hours, its a research essay, I'm required to write 2000words and I've written round about 10, which is 1/200 done and that I will be or already am screwed if I haven't started a week ago.
I dreamt that I stabbed my brother and had to watch him die. And I got stuck in playing this sadistic hide and seek involving the scariest brutal tasks. And I missed torts.
A combination of very bad events to start the morning. I'm so shaken. I need to start doing my Art History Ass-ay.
Sometimes I think I'm the most obstinate person on earth. Especially when I want to prove my point. I don't know whether I'm really determined and unyielding or am I just being bull-headed and stiff-necked. After applying for shit loads of internship positions and not getting any definitive ones, I'm still adamant that I.can.get.an.internship.without.contacts.
Maybe its time to abandon my relentless pursuit of proving to I-don't-know-who that I can get an internship with nothing except my own capabilities, and subordinate myself to the common notion that contacts are indeed, important. Sigh, why do I always like to take the road less traveled and end up u-turning back to the road frequented. I end up only to reinforce the point which I set out to derogate.
I realized I actually could have gotten an internship by now if not for my pigheadedness. Family and friends have offered to help but this mulish mule remained mulish so serve her right if she ends up being a waitress in Thai Express. Rah. Lesson learned: draw a line between determination and foolhardiness.
I shall learn that in my forthcoming Art History Essay and stop running away from it just to prove my point that I don't like it because I think it makes no sense. Instead, I should see the bigger picture - that its worth 30% of the final grade, due in less than 48 hours, its a research essay, I'm required to write 2000words and I've written round about 10, which is 1/200 done and that I will be or already am screwed if I haven't started a week ago.
I dreamt that I stabbed my brother and had to watch him die. And I got stuck in playing this sadistic hide and seek involving the scariest brutal tasks. And I missed torts.
A combination of very bad events to start the morning. I'm so shaken. I need to start doing my Art History Ass-ay.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
I CAN'T WAIIITTTT TO EXECUTE MY BIGGGG HOOOOLLLIIDDDAYYYY PPLLLAAANNNSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BIG BIG BIG FUN FUN FUN EXCITING EXCITING EXCITING NO-STUDY-NO-STRESS-NO-ART-HISTORY-NO-HOUSEWORK-
NO-BLAH-BLAH-BLAH R&R PERIOD HOHOHO HAHAHA HEHEHE
I WANNA EAT BEER-BATTERED FISH AND CHIPSSSS AND BURGER FUEL AND A LOT A LOT A LOT!!!!
WE SPENT 1 HOUR WALKING AROUND VIADUCT TO FIND FOR SOMETHING TO EAT AND WHEN WE FINALLY DID, I WAS BARRED FROM THE RESTAURANT/PUB BECAUSE I DIDN'T BRING MY ID!!! 2ND TIME THAT WEEK!!
MY FISH AND CHIPPSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS......
LAST NIGHT WAS FUN!
ART HISTORY IS MAKING ME INCOHERENT!
YAY I MIGHT BE GG TO WATCH PHANTOM OF THE OPERA!
NO! I MIGHT NOT! I'M BROKE!
YAY I'M GG ON A CRUISE!
NO! I'M GG TO DO VERY BADLY FOR ART HISTORY!
NO! I DON'T LIKE TORTS!
YES! LAST WEEK OF UNI!
YES! BYE BYE TORTS! BYE BYE ART HISTORY!
HAHAHAHA SOMETHING VERY FUNNY HAPPENED!
AHHHHHH!!! ok finish venting and ranting. PTBB, I lost. I'm going to drink till I puke. Get ready, you have to wear a raincoat. Alternatively you can go Japan with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
EVERYONE LETS GO JAPAN!!!!!
Ok, Huiling shall get a grip of herself and start.writing.her.essay.
*As I was reading the genesis, K asked: Did God ever mentioned dinosaurs? Hmm....
BIG BIG BIG FUN FUN FUN EXCITING EXCITING EXCITING NO-STUDY-NO-STRESS-NO-ART-HISTORY-NO-HOUSEWORK-
NO-BLAH-BLAH-BLAH R&R PERIOD HOHOHO HAHAHA HEHEHE
I WANNA EAT BEER-BATTERED FISH AND CHIPSSSS AND BURGER FUEL AND A LOT A LOT A LOT!!!!
WE SPENT 1 HOUR WALKING AROUND VIADUCT TO FIND FOR SOMETHING TO EAT AND WHEN WE FINALLY DID, I WAS BARRED FROM THE RESTAURANT/PUB BECAUSE I DIDN'T BRING MY ID!!! 2ND TIME THAT WEEK!!
MY FISH AND CHIPPSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS......
LAST NIGHT WAS FUN!
ART HISTORY IS MAKING ME INCOHERENT!
YAY I MIGHT BE GG TO WATCH PHANTOM OF THE OPERA!
NO! I MIGHT NOT! I'M BROKE!
YAY I'M GG ON A CRUISE!
NO! I'M GG TO DO VERY BADLY FOR ART HISTORY!
NO! I DON'T LIKE TORTS!
YES! LAST WEEK OF UNI!
YES! BYE BYE TORTS! BYE BYE ART HISTORY!
HAHAHAHA SOMETHING VERY FUNNY HAPPENED!
AHHHHHH!!! ok finish venting and ranting. PTBB, I lost. I'm going to drink till I puke. Get ready, you have to wear a raincoat. Alternatively you can go Japan with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
EVERYONE LETS GO JAPAN!!!!!
Ok, Huiling shall get a grip of herself and start.writing.her.essay.
*As I was reading the genesis, K asked: Did God ever mentioned dinosaurs? Hmm....
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