Wiped out

I never really believe in making New Year resolutions - because I believe in constant purposefulness.

But its always important to look back and understand, accept, learn and try being better.

Finally, I made an effort to clear up my cellphone's inbox as I was waiting for my parents to pick me up. My inbox was exploding with close to 1000 texts... and as I was deleting them, the somewhat familiar yet distant memories started flooding in. It pretty much wrapped up 2008. Everything seems clearer, and hindsight is definitely better than foresight.

Draining is the word to describe 2008. Looking back, I can't believe I pulled through the last 3 years. They have been the shortest yet most intensive years in my life. I've always thought that I won't be able to make it through another similar year, but it somehow happens even if its tougher. I guess thats how humans are - they somehow just suck it up and make it through if they have no choice. After awhile, you realize thats just the way it is and slowly, start making the best out of it.

2009 somehow feels intimidating. Nightmares after nightmares about NZ recently, I don't exactly know why too. I know its going to be a tough year ahead, that being due to various reasons. Yet its also another year worth giving a shot.

But before anything, I really, really, really think I have to give myself a break. I've been running on...I-don't-know-what for so long, I can't seem to stop. I thought I was wiped out in Semester 2 but it has been accumulating ever since. I'm just so excited about everything, wanting to give everything a shot (like the previous post) such that I perpetually feel tired. So...... ta-da! After gym tomorrow, I'll go home and chill.

For the next few days, I will avoid town and avoid reading. Chill out, outdoors and....rest.

High on Adrenaline

Oh shit! I got sooo freaking many things I wanna do I'm getting high on adrenaline even before I've done anything!!!

Yesterday I started checking airfares.

And I still want to learn about finance
And I still want to learn about social business
And I still want to learn guitar/piano
And I still want to go for the walk
And I still want to go and sing k
And I still want to go to a xxx xxxx hahahahahah
And I still want to go Timbre/Wala Wala
And I still want to get that bloody internship
And I still have not confirm my pro bono attachment
And I still have not read my stuff
And I still have not met up with a few people
And shit! I FOUND SOMETHING ELSE WHICH INTERESTS ME AGAIN!!!!

BRYAN CAVE. Freak!!! NOW THIS IS THE PLACE I WANNA WORK (TOO)!!!
It sounds real good. Check this out:

Bryan Cave is a leader in corporate, transactional and litigation representation with more than 1,000 lawyers and other consulting professionals practicing from 22 offices around the world. Bryan Cave advises a wide array of businesses, financial institutions, not-for-profit organizations, governmental entities and individuals

Yeah that sounds law-ish. I like it, but I know I can't go that far in that area. BUT BUT BUT!

What I am interested is this:

Bryan Cave International Trade LLC

Bryan Cave International Trade LLC ("BCIT") is a consulting firm of non-lawyer professionals and a wholly-owned subsidiary of Bryan Cave LLP. As a trade and customs consultancy based in Asia, BCIT is well-positioned to provide clients with the strategic and operational advice needed to anticipate, react to and benefit from the diverse and constantly evolving regulatory landscape of the Asian region.

OR

Bryan Cave Strategies LLC

Bryan Cave Strategies LLC is another wholly-owned subsidiary of Bryan Cave LLP. Bryan Cave Strategies provides government relations and strategic counsel to corporations, trade associations and non-profit organizations. For clients facing a public affairs battle or difficult public policy climate, Bryan Cave Strategies designs and manages effective issue and legislative campaigns that produce winning results.

BUAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. SOUNDS LIKE WHAT I WANT!!! AND CHECK THIS OUT TOO:

Its partners include former US Senators Jack Danforth and Alan Dixon, former New York Mayor Ed Koch and Charles Burson, former Attorney General of Indiana and Tennessee and former Counsel to Vice-President Al Gore.

Bryan Cave consistently ranks in Vault's Top 100 Most Prestigious firms and in The AmLaw 100.

Damnit, if I can get my hands on an internship with them (BCIT is located in Singapore)...MUAHAHAHHAHAA

Sheesshhh didn't I just told myself that I don't wanna work anymore?! Rahhhhh!!!!! WHY.AM.I.INTERESTED.IN.SO.MANY.THINGS!!!! Focus Huiling, focus!!!
Must.stop.reading.else.this.will.never.end.

But then again, if you are not interested in the world, the world will not be interested in you.

This week is gonna be awesome!!!! Half day today, 2 more hours before I get outta office!

I meant to update my blog but I somehow trailed off a lil. Hahaha then again, I should start editing my CV before work ends. Call me crazy but, I am going to give it a shot.

OK! A brief update!
8/12 - Shing's birthday
10/12 - Media night
11/12 - Chin Hao's birthday
12/12 - Benice and Guixian
13/12 - Jo and Xiulu
15/12 - Meiping
16/12 - Carol
17/12 - Can't remember
18/12 - Can't remember
19/12 - Platoon dinner, Timbre
20/12 - Jason's house, Madalene's birthday
21/12 - Christmas function
22/12 - Yan's house
23/12 - Mom erupted
24/12 - Jaime's birthday
25-28/12 - Malaysia
29/12 - Jaime, Benice and Timbre
30/12 - Jo and Jen
31/12 - Jo and Xl and mp

HAHHAHA I'm going to bring mp for her first clubbing experience at a gay club! BUHAHAHAHAHAHAAAHHA
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Can't wait for tomorrow!!!!

xian.

Always sleepy.

So.tired.so.tired.so.tired.so.tired.till.I.wanna.collapse.

I.keep.getting.stomachaches.every.night.and.morning.
for.a.week.so.painful.so.painful.till.I.wanna.faint.

Anyone.who.is.free.for.lunch.can.come.and.find.me.at.Tanjong.Pagar.

Come.Friday.come!

She who knows the price of everything, knows the value of nothing.

Aiya, fuck it. They didn't even consider granting me a concession after I tried convincing them that my work experience, track record and attitude were enough to warrant that freaking 0.1 mark. So, I'm not going to waste my time arguing with them (Until I get back there and personally knock on their door).

Instead, I've set my eyes on something more exciting and worthy of my time. MUAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAhAHAHAHAHHAHA
Then again, I'm still waiting for a positive reply. Everyone chants after me: *Huiling can get it, Huiling can get it, Huiling can get it....

I CAN'T WAIT FOR ALL THE CHRISTMAS PARTIES!!! YAY!!!!!!!

DO YOU KNOW?

I really love music.
I really really really do.

My iPod is a must-have item in my bag - I can't wait to plug-in before or after work.
I can never say enough about how much I love music and I'm pretty upset that I have not started learning the piano/guitar.

Anyway, I'm lovin' my current play list now. Check it out:

1. Fall for you - Secondhand Serenade
2. Run - Leona Lewis
   
3. The Heart of Life - John Mayer
4. Wherever you will go - The Calling
5. Time after Time - Eva Cassidy
6. If I were a Boy - Beyonce
7. Time is running out - Muse
8. Warwick Avenue - Duffy
   

I am really hooked onto 'Fall for you'. Listen to the piano!!!! I really regretted giving up piano when I was younger.

I MUST HAVE THE BEST SOUND SYSTEM in my future home. With a white grand piano. RAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

I'm going to buy damn good speakers with woofer using my first pay and bring it back to NZ. WOOHOO! I can imagine me lying on my comfy bed listening to whatever I've downloaded. BUAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAA

Oh, I remembered using my first pay to buy my current iPod video too! It was totally a worthwhile investment. I really feel like going K now haha.

DO YOU KNOW, I REALLY LIKE THE PIANO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!