C.o.n.t.r.a.c.t.s.

I hope it rains so heavily tonight such that

- Auckland city floods
- Major power failure in the city except my apartment
- Roads are too slippery to be driven on
- Winds too strong to walk along the streets
- Temperature too low for the lecturers to get out of their houses
- Everyone stays at home
- And taking into consideration all the above factors, the law lecturers decide that...

THE DEADLINE OF CONTRACTS OPINION IS POSTPONED!!!!!!!!!!
Please please please please please.... I'll pay you 5bucks to make that happen. (Unilateral contract with consideration)

Exit

I refuse to admit that I like this song.
Rahhhhhhhh
Everyone.is.telling.me.that.economics.is.useless.
(I recently switched my major from Accounting to Economics)
But Huiling and Linghui always have a backup plan before they take on something seemingly and relatively unattractive.
CFA and ACCA.
Just wait and see. We will not stop here.

Huiling misses all of you! (Including those who I've never took any photos with).
Linghui doesn't, she knows that she is going to see you all sooner or later and reckons that you all miss her more. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.
*Whines like mad: Weiqiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii............


WB and MP, see you all soon. Stop flying away when I'm flying back. I really miss you all. (I was threatened to say that)

Take care my dear Momos.

Haha I just saw these photos taken by don't-know-who. The beauty of my pineapple tarts.

What a pointless post.
Thats the effect of the imminent Contracts Opinion DEADline.
MP... my word count is still at 0. =(

I'm ok

61 hours after arrival
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one last post

I'm probably left with approximately 2 more days before I return to Auckland, University, a foreign place, a home?
and
I'm feeling stressed, sad, relieved, frustrated, annoyed, tired, apprehensive, tensed?

I reckon I always make the same mistake albeit me warning myself not to do so every trip back.

Aim: Recuperate, Reflect and Rest
Actual Fact: Play, Chiong and Blocking out all thoughts
Outcome: Disorientated

But not as if I can do anything about it.
Anyhows, I don't think it would be as bad as the previous semester. I will try harder.
Good luck Momo, you got truckloads of work awaiting for your grand arrival in Auckland.

Ok, I write this with a heavy heart. I guess many think that I do not want to go back. Well partially, yes. I guess I'm reluctant because I know I wouldn't have an exactly good start to the semester because thanks to me and only me I just didn't keep to what I envisaged myself to do and I dread to rush for deadlines, have the constant nagging feeling to do this and do that at this time that place and I don't think I can assimilate easily and quickly to the darn weather over there. Yeah, its kinda trivial but Momo is not inherently adaptive to changes. She likes certainty but awe creativity, likes cinch but apprehends dubiety - no wonder my parents can never decipher me.

They: 'I don't get it. Do you like noisy, crowded places or quiet places.'
Me: 'Depends.'
They: 'You are very ironic. (Indicating more than 1 aspect)'
Me: 'Yeah. It all depends.'

Suddenly, I remembered the Ad by one of the credit cards for women, with the slogan 'Man just don't get it'. I thought that ad was pretty cool. Well at least it left an impression on me after so many years. It didn't mean much when I was younger, I just thought it was amusing but I guess I kinda get it now after seeing my parents behave and react when they are together. Gosh its so frustrating for both sides. I can understand both perspectives but its so difficult to explain. One uses the mind another uses the heart and the middle person (e.g. the children) have to use both heart and mind. And Momo doesn't want to use either. Yeah, what happened to my filial piety...

I get very fidgety round bout this time - trying to piece myself together and get ready for the next semester. Its like my head is the galaxy and all my thoughts and fears are colliding against each other like...whatever you call it...dark matter, stars and whatever not. I just need to get a full piece i.e. full brain when I get back. Yes, yes, yes very bad analogy. I shouldn't attempt to use such imagery to describe how I feel because I'm hopeless in the field of science.

Rah, whatever will come, will come. I'm not sad, I'm not happy, I'm just... guai lan. (Ok, I don't know what that means but Jo just asked why am I so guai lan on MSN. So it must be the word to describe me now.)

if only

i know this is redundant. but still,
if only im stronger
if only i don't need to speak
if only someone would understand
if only i worked harder
if only i wasn't distracted
if only someone would know
if only you and you and you and i would stop making life difficult
if only i know what would happen
if only i know what should be
if only i know what to do
if only i know who am i
if only i know who are you
if only i knew, i need not be typing this

pocket got hole

Before I start going on about what I've been doing, I got to complain how freaking easy it is for money to just creep out from your pocket.
Its like the Oreo advert - now you see it now you don't (ok, not very sure if its from Oreo but I'm very sure its from some food ad)

I had blue notes in my wallet, then it became red then it became purple then it became heavier - because it miraculously changes to coins. And where the hell all my money went to when my bag has nothing new in it after a day out?! My freakin stomach. Argh. Nothing new in my bag but always something new in my stomach.

I.will.stop.binging.

The past 2 weeks were really like..a holiday with all the freedom I want - my parents ain't in Singapore and I do not need to study (Linghui says so). For the sake of remembrance, I'll have a very brief summary of what I've done so I can look back and covet the stress-free life I have now (Linghui has a bad habit of making life difficult for Huiling haha)

Well, the main thing is always food and usually whatever meet ups I go to involves food. Actually, if you think about it a lil more, its not just me - whenever you guys meet up, you guys end up eating as well RIGHT! Right.

28-29 June - Eugene's birthday at Johor
There was so much food! Like..really heaps of it and I wanted and needed to try everything. I really tried controlling but there was just too much and I reckon the temptation was just too great to be warded off and at last, I ate so much till I had heartburn. I know, its very - ______-"". But trust me, if you were there, you would also eat that much! I bet you would ask why the rest didn't eat to that extend. Thats because its different - I haven't ate that for ages! Anyways, we played several group games which was freakin funny and it was good fun. The next day was alright - Dim Sum for breakfast - its dirt cheap and you can eat like a Godzilla and only pay a relatively small sum. I didn't eat like a Godzilla, only like a hippo because I've learned my lesson that heartburn is not a very nice experience to go through. After which, I ate 2 more sushis and we went for karaoke.

30 June - I finally read 1 Contracts case and met up with my flatmeat Carol for dinner.
1 July - Met Shing and Spencer for lunch at Thai Express and visited the Singapore Art Museum. The featured exhibitions we viewed were 'Post-Doi Moi: Vietnamese Art After 1990' and 'Alain Fleischer: Time Exposures'. Joseph joined us later for coffee at TCC in Bugis. After which, I met Jo to have dinner with my parents at Serangoon's coffee shop which our families frequent.
2 July - Met Jo briefly at Wheelock's Coffee Bean then GuiXian and Benice for dinner at Hokaido fair.
3 July - Met Jaime at PS and caught Hancock, dinner with my parents and they left for Mongolia.
4 July - Finally got my ass out and jogged/walked for awhile which probably was offset later with the food I ate. Damnit. Watched Prince Caspain with Jaime and met Jo and Hendric for Sushi Tei. Cabbed home and cooked my all-time favourite Bitter gourd with salted egg and black noodles for supper. Watched something something in Vegas (forgot the title)
5 July - Hen left early, Jo and I lagged quite a bit at home and forgo the plan to Pulau Ubin. Instead, we went to PS and had lunch at Thai Express, then dessert at Secret Recipe. When we are together, Jo spends money like water, I spend money like Trump. We somehow convince ourselves that we are rich when we are out together.
6 July - Feeling kinda motivated, I made my way down to the Coffee Bean at Gardens - the place we called 2nd home during JC. It was a nice quiet moment which I really appreciated. Then potluck with Jo and her friends. Felt outdoorsy that day and suggested that we should go star-gazing at East Coast. So I met up with Xiulu and took a bus down to East Coast. To kick start our 'adventure' we had dessert at a HK cafe. We were a lil unprepared - no tent, no torch, I brought a yoga mat (thats the best I had) and Xiulu had her sleeping bag. But it was still VERY cold and VERY uncomfortable and VERY sandy and there were MANY dodgy people. At last, after perpetually laughing at our stupidity, we packed up and went to Macs for some food. Walked round East Coast trying to find a spot and ultimately gave up and cabbed home at 5am. We then realized how comfortable is my bed.
7 July - Met Apple for lunch at Crystal Jade. Some complications and we ended up ordering more than what we could finished. But we did finish everything and sat there till the cows come home. Then met up with the most unlikely person, Mr Tham and Benice! It was really quite interesting.

Yeah, thats bout it, its been quite good since I do not need to think much the past few weeks =).