The start...

And yes, the exams are finally over = holidays
Nah, the exams weren't fantastically done, but I think I'd done whatever I could to salvage my situation... so I'm cool with it.

I did this:

Thats the sheet of paper we can bring in during mgmt, I'd to squeeze everything into it. So I was quite hardworking after all.

I was so damn drained after that 3hr accounting paper such that I subconsciously wrote my name on the paper in the 'debit' and 'credit' format - debiting my forename and crediting my given name. Haha, I was THAT into accounting.


We really really really...tried studying hard.


Ran hard too.


We went for dinner at The Fox at the Viaduct Harbour and a late night movie. And damn was I tired but then again, the farewell party was the next day and upon reaching home, I had to pack, clean the whole freaking house. I was cursing under my breath cause I had to vacuum the floor, pack everything at 2am in the morning and considering I didn't slp well the past few nights, I was so damn pissed. Caught some sleep and woke up freakin early again to catch a bus down to the shore, to Van's place for the party preparation. Shopped for the stuff and cooked. Rayvin screwed up the plan a little and there was a miscommunication but all went well. Rushed back to the city in time for everything and laughed the whole night through. I'm shock that we could talk for 6hours... we didn't even play any vcds or music. I was so worried, initially, that everyone would be bored.

And of course, after everything, the same old vicious cycle again - cleaning up. And finally, I've the time to clean my balcony. After a year. Ok, I never really washed my balcony before and it was so dirty to the extend that when my clothes drop on it, it gets partially black due to the dust. So to save me from re-washing my washed clothes when it drops, I was so damn determine to wash the whole balcony plus the planes and whatever. My god, there were cobwebs and @#$%^&* amount of dust and it seems as though I took forever. Cause I ain't no broom or mop here except a pathetic small brush. Squat there and brush the floor in the middle of winter is really no joke. Climbing up the chair and wiping the planes is scary... you look down and realise that if you fall,you're a goner. Thats 1 balcony, still another one to go.


view of sunrise from the balcony

Thank god Van's here to make my bed and wash my dishes. haha. My next big thing is to re arrange the whole house. I'm gonna move that damn queen size bed to the other room, gonna move that damn 42inch TV into the room, the damn sofa into the room, the damn single bed out, the damn study table out. See how many 'damns' I'm using! Cause I know after doing that, I'll be paralyze the next day. I did that once last sem and my wrists ached for 2 weeks. Wah lao, how I wish I'm that rock thing in Fantastic 4.

And the girls from Dunedin are in Auckland now! How exciting.. my future doctor! Heard that theres a snow storm down south and we're flying down next week. Please... hell no will I want to get stuck there. Its way too cold. But I'm really looking forward to the trip...cause we're gonna try out something new! SNOWBOARDING! Yes!!! I hate the cold but thats the sacrifice I guess.

This hols is really the time for me to clean the house so damn clean such that it can withstand the dirt thats gonna accumulate for the next half of the year. And maybe I'll think bout more ways to make some money to pay up those outstanding bills or to fund more trips. haha my god...do you know, money slips out your bank account so quickly and unknowingly during trips? And one fine day you decide to check your account and your heart skips a beat.

My new craze...Gloria Jeans in Borders. The stupid crazy weather outside makes it so heartening to stay indoors having a hot cup of mocha latte and a good book. Borders' the best man. They are so damn good cause they allow you to bring the books into the cafe, sit there forever, read all their books without paying.

And I need to say this! I know I'm slow, but FRIENDS is so damn funny! Like super funny. And The Simpsons too. I really hate Homer, I just wanna box the TV when he appears. There's the Simpsons movie coming out soon. He makes me irritated yet at the same time so addicted to Simpsons.

The Best Run Ever

To the Viaduct Harbour this evening.
It was breathtaking.
Its the only reason why winter is good,
Its as though everything was worth it
'Regret' sounded especially nice on the ipod,
The air seemed especially fresh,
The waters seemed especially calm,
When we turned back, we saw Auckland's skyline.

So beautiful, so alluring:
Sometimes I feel like I’m seeing it all at once, and its too much my heart fills up like a balloon that’s about to burst… and then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold onto it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can’t feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life.

I wished you guys were here.

why independence sucks
cause I don't want to cook
I don't want to wash the dishes
I don't want to clear the dustbin
I don't want to vacuum the floor
I don't want to clean the toilet
I don't want to pay the bills
I don't want to think when I spend
I don't want to do the laundry
I don't want to do grocery shopping
I don't want to be carrying so much stuff up the stupid slope
I don't want to worry that the house is messy
I don't want to worry about anything

I want to just sit and slack
Before dinner, my mom would call 'Ling, come down for dinner!'
Then I will just go down and on the TV and wait.
Then she would scream 'Ling! set the table!'
Then I will set.
Then she would nag that I'm not helping
Then I will go the kitchen and take the food out
Then she would scold
Then I will call the others to come down for dinner.
Then after dinner, I will just sit and watch TV hoping she won't ask me to do anything
Then she would say 'eh, wash your own dishes'
sometimes I will just act damn tired and say cannot, want to die already.
Then most of the time I get away with it.
I don't need to think or worry. She say, I do. She don't say, I don't do.
Here, no one says, I still need to do.
Or when there is the maid, even better.
I don't need to do anything.

Can you imagine a life without doing housework?!
I led a life of a princess last time.
Too tired, father there to fetch.
Too lazy, maid there to clean.
Don't feel like studying, parents there to nag.
Not enough money, parents there to ask.
Last minute forgot to buy something, parents there to buy.
Sick, parents know what to do.
Don't know what to decide, parents decide.
Lights spoil, father install.
Feel like eating out, ask friends to go out and eat. How expensive can it get. 2bucks?!
Bed sheets, maid there to change.
Don't need to iron, don't need to fold, don't need to clean toilet, don't need to look at the bank account, don't need to pay anything, don't need to care about anything except play and study.

Being a princess in the house really rocks.
Being a maid in the house really sucks.

Maybe I should say 'Why parents rock'

'I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me… but its hard to stay mad, when there’s so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I’m seeing it all at once, and its too much my heart fills up like a balloon that’s about to burst… and then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold onto it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can’t feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. I know you have no idea what I am talking about…but don’t worry, someday you would.'

i'm damn bloody angry with my stupid rubbish neck. It just got to sprain itself at this damn freaking period. And it can't freaking unsprain itself. And the whole damn day passed without anything done and its not as if there are a lot of days left to the exams. And I don't have any freaking spare time to see the doctor. wth?!?

I wanted and I thought I needed to make 2 changes when I came over.
1) Get an English name
2) Change my email

1) People here can't pronounce 'Huiling'
Its either kuiling, huayling, kuayling. The really bad ones are huiding, hooling.
When they say that, it makes me feel damn stupid - does my name sound that stupid to you?!
I know its time to get an English name ever since I came here, but I just thought it would be odd and I probably won't respond if they call me using that name. So I kept pushing that thought away. And so Carol suggested 'zilla' today. What the hell.
James Bond introduces himself as 'Bond, James Bond'. And how am I gonna introduce myself? Er.. Zilla.. you know Godzilla? yeah that Zilla. My first name is God and my last is Zilla. You can call me Godzilla. ...... Carol, stop that monster thing.

2) Change my email
I wanted to change my email since JC times. 2 reasons - sounds stupid, difficult to spell.
tide_fung@hotmail.com - they always ask me what it means.
er... tide as in, the sea tide... fung as in, the wind in chinese - I love the nature.
Actually - its just 2 characters I loved in a movie when I was younger.

They asked me for my email and I've to spell it out.
't-i-d-e, underscore, F-U-n-g, at hotmail dot com'
see that F-U? - sounds vulgar ain't it?
So I've to spell f-u-n-g in 1 breath, then slowly repeat F-U, N-G, again, so that the person won't be mistaken that I'm saying 'f*** you'
I know thats whats going through their mind because the first few times when they asked for my email and when i said F-U and pause, they would be like..'pardon?'

1 more week left before mgmt paper. er.. yay? I've still heaps to study. Today Donald called to ask for tution and Van picked up the call. She said he was speaking in Tamil and she said vanakam or something like that which means...good afternoon in Tamil? Actually he was speaking in English with his super strong Indian accent.

Actually, I told myself that I cannot give tution cause I've no time and if he calls back I'm just gonna say no. But then he was like..I pay you I pay you. If you ask your friends to come I pay you double. I pay for your phone bill (he thought answering the call costs me money). Then at last, I don't know how to say no and told him to email me the questions and see if I know. If I do, I'll teach him. Maybe 50bucks for 2hrs. But me, being me, feels like charging higher - its the exam period and I haven even finish studying for my exams! Maybe I should charge...100!! Haha ok..taking this too far.

But its so unfair.. I feel that I'm being ripped off by Danny..he asks so many questions and he even emailed me to ask how to apply all the concepts of law on the cases I gave him. !!!!!!!! He thinks I can remember all the cases. Omg... I already summarised all the important cases and theories and concepts..he just needs to apply them!

Tution seems to be a really viable way to make money. But I just don't dare to do it. I mean... I'm just too scared to be be teaching the wrong stuff. And law.. its like.. no right nor wrong answers... But its really a good money-making way, and this won't last long, cause the students now are desperate.. 2000 fighting for 200 places, they will pay and do anything just to get into law school. I went to the orthodontist today and the cost amounted to $5800.. Damn... thats a lot... I really need the money...

Although $50 for 2hrs seems to be easy money, but then again, is it really worth it to sacrifice your study time for that? Hmm...I'm not quite sure.
hmm.. but one thing which i'm quite sure is..that I'm not suppose to be here.

Aiya, but who cares...everyone needs a break. Just that my breaks seem longer than everyone's ha ha.

Oh yeah..Ex kiwi.. I wonder how many people will actually be going in the end? Ok, so I'll promote it here! If there's anyone seeing this, remember to go for Ex kiwi!




I cooked..pineapple rice today..my most impressive dish up till date! Ha ha. Its only impressive because of the pineapple covering I guess. But taste wise...hmmmmmmm..... haha why not go for Ex kiwi and try it yourself?! (good promotion technique? haha ok, I'll try harder)