you won't know

I feel, I ponder, I hope, I wish, I listen, I see, I read

But I can't understand. We can never understand, right?
Its not about understanding, its about accepting.

Quoted from Prison Break:

Scared? I think you are scared. You wouldn't be a human if you weren't scared in a place like this.

He replied, "When I was young, I couldn't sleep at night. Because I thought there was a monster in the closet. But my brother told me there was nothing in the closet but fear. And he said it wasn't made of anything but air. He said you just have to face it, you just have to open that door and the monster would disappear. And here though, you face your fear. You open that door, but there are hundred more doors behind it. And the monsters hiding behind them are all real."

Yeah, they are all real. The readings I did yesterday were just, disturbing. They were about manslaughter and abuse and the next few weeks are all bout homicides, murders, sexual assaults, abuses and the likes. Yeah, the Act is disturbing, but the Law just makes me, uneasy. I'm perturbed in certain verdicts and explanations leading to it. I mean, theres no such thing as fair treatment, theres no such thing as justice. Maybe I'm watching too many dramas about crimes for my own good. I finished the hongkong CSI-alike drama, I'm watching prison break now, and reading about criminal law every single day. Please don't make my world any darker, I need someone to shed some light on to it.



how to save a life
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came